It’s not every day
that you pause, and listen. You cringe hard, in a frail attempt to listen to
the voice inside, yes, the one that seems so distant now. You yearn to look
back, perhaps even to re-trace your steps to meet the cross-roads that you had
so carelessly overlooked. You ask yourself, was it the right road that was
chosen?
Yet,
some part of you urges you ahead. It forces you to think that as you had come
this far, going even further up will not be much of a problem. You experience a
feeling of guilt of having stopped at all, as the moments of decision taken
back in time reflect so clearly out there in the oblivion. You contemplate if
it’s just a passing season of winter, and that the cheerful days of spring are
fast approaching.
Yet,
you think of each step you had taken, and you try to feel the highs and lows
felt at each foot-fall. Yonder, the world seems to be mocking at you, and you
can almost hear your own self sneering. You ask yourself if it’s actually worth
it. Something is amiss. Somewhere, something is definitely wrong. You know it,
you feel it, and yet you do not portray it.
Yet,
you shake your head, and scold yourself to be so weak. You convince yourself
that life is hard, and that the easier parts of it are just not worth it. Deep
down, you feel a level of satisfaction, and you take pride in yourself that you
had taken the difficult path, and that you have lived up-to the challenges it
forayed. You congratulate yourself of having come so far, and that it was a
decision well taken. You have always believed that ‘Life is simple; you make a
decision and you never turn back!’
You
shrug. You smile. And you take another step….forward.
